Best Actress Award

Many times that I’ve said to someone that I was nervous, he or she has said, “I had no idea! You looked so calm.”

I think a lot of people with anxiety hide it well. We have our internal symptoms, but on the surface we may seem cool and collected.

I used to see anxiety as a stigma. Now I find it tad easier to deal with if I let people know that I’m anxious.

How do you deal with anxiety? Do you lay all your cards out on the table, or do you keep it hidden?

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Recovering

I finally found out where I’m going, and my job is changing. I’m happy that I’ll be in a position that is a good fit for me, but I will miss the people I’m currently working with.

My body still hasn’t fully recovered from this past week. My stomach is still in knots, and I’m exhausted yet restless.

Will this go on for weeks to come? I’m trying to look toward the future with excitement, but I am equally nervous because basically I’m starting a new job.

Please keep me in your thoughts.

Off the Charts

Today was one of the worst days I’d had in a while.

It didn’t start out that way. It started like any other day. I got up, got dressed, and drove to work.

That’s when I found out that today was Layoff Day.

I thought I would be OK. I thought we would all be OK. But then a coworker was called into a supervisor’s office, and then you could cut the tension with a knife.

I was miserable. All of my anxiety/panic symptoms appeared. Nausea, heart palpitations, shaking, breathing difficulties, you name it. My anxiety level was off the charts.

I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t concentrate.

Then the meetings started. I was in two: One to tell the employees that layoffs had finished and the other to tell employees in my department that we would be hearing later in the week what would happen to us.

So the unknown will drag on for a bit, but I am learning how to deal with the edge of the unknown.

I just don’t like dealing with the known right now.