Bedtime

Today’s prompt from BlogHer:

What is the last thing you do before going to bed?

After I go through the normal routine of brushing my teeth, etc., I crawl into bed with the iPad. For some reason, puzzle games are relaxing to me and I’m not awake for very long.

There are even some nights when I don’t remember what I did in the game the night before. That’s where walkthroughs are great!

What’s the last part of your bedroom routine?

 

Tired

I started my new job today, and even though I wasn’t too busy I was still very nervous.

I know that the medication I’m taking is working for depression, but my anxiety is through the roof. I’m trying to train my brain to exist in the present, but I keep getting lost in the future.

I’m tired of feeling this way. I know that my anxiety and frantic thoughts will pass, but it’s taking too long.

Muppets Everywhere

We went to see The Muppets today.

I wasn’t sure what to expect, but everyone I know said that the movie was wonderful. After seeing it, I agree.

I loved the music, the story, and the nostalgic references.

When I got home, I had to pull out my own Muppet. Lee bought me the kit from FAO Schwarz a couple years ago.

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Don’t we look alike?

Spending Time with Myself

Yesterday I wrote about whether I would rather be alone or be with other people. I said that I didn’t want to be a hermit, that I wanted to be around people.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t like going places by myself. There are times when I will leave the house alone and go to a movie or treat myself to a meal.

This past year I went to two baseball games. I traveled to the stadium, bought my ticket, got a hot dog and a Coke, and settled in my seat. Both times I went on a Friday, so after each game I got to see fireworks.

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I didn’t focus on the game the whole time. I brought knitting with me to keep busy.

 

I had a great time.

I wish Lee could’ve gone with me, but being able to enjoy my own company is probably one of the greatest gifts I could ever receive.

I’m glad I like myself. Maybe me, myself, and I should make baseball games a tradition.

My Favorite Place

A prompt from BlogHer:

Describe a favorite place. Focus on how that place affects your sense of taste, touch, sight, sound, or smell. (Guest Post by Adrienne McDonnell, author of The Doctor and the Diva)

When I was going to a hypnotherapist, I was told to envision my favorite place. I imagined an open field with a picnic and Lee waiting for me. A light breeze flowed through my hair and the skirt of my dress. The grass felt like feathers beneath my feet. The vision made me feel calm.

We have a little bit of an oasis in our backyard. It’s not finished, but Lee’s vision is coming together. The best part is our backyard faces a greenbelt, so there will be never be anyone behind us.

A blank slate

There is a lot of wildlife that hangs around. We’ve seen all sorts of hawks, skunks, mice, and even a roadrunner.

One of these days, we’ll have that picnic. And it will be even better than I imagined.

To be or not to be…alone?

Today’s prompt from BlogHer:

Do you enjoy being alone? Would you rather be around other people?

I used to think that my agoraphobia meant that I HAD to be alone. That I couldn’t stand to be around other people. I thought that, if I ever married, my husband and I would have to live in two houses next to each other so I could sleep alone at night.

And when I feel sick, even if it’s anxiety-related, I want to be by myself.

But I’m learning to handle things a bit better around people. Because, truly, I don’t want to be alone.

I mean, I like “me” time as much as the next person. But while I used to want to go solo, I don’t anymore. I think it’s because of the wonderful friends I’ve met, including my husband. I love being around them.

 

This One’s About Pie

Normally I would be writing about agoraphobia. But not today. Today I’m writing about pie.

Today the kitchen is filled with the aromas of various pies that Lee is making, namely pumpkin, tomato, and Kentucky Derby.

I didn’t know what a Derby pie was. Lee explained that it had pecans and chocolate chips. I was sold.

Derby Pie

The pumpkin pie is also known as “booze pie” because there’s whiskey in the recipe.

And the tomato pie? A cross between a margherita pizza and a quiche. So, so good!

Mmmm…pie.

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